We fold our hands like paper airplanes,

kiss__theselips @ 2005-04-22T23:49:00

2005-04-23T04:49:20Z

i got my drivers permit today, yay!

kiss__theselips @ 2005-04-09T02:14:00

2005-04-09T07:18:39Z

As some of you may know, i was in San Diego recently...so here are some pictures.

i have more...but they need to be edited for size....man oh man i missed those kids& if you dont know who any of them are then you are a loser.

kiss__theselips @ 2005-02-15T22:15:00

2005-02-16T04:24:39Z

This weekend was awesome. We left for sections on friday and had tons of fun in the hotel just screwing around, here are some pictures from friday and saturday

. Becky and Natalia being evil on the bus

Marissa and myself

Lindsey's butt

Becky, myself and Natalia

Lindsey, Kari Jo, Alanna, Katie, Megan, Brenda, Renee, & Aleisha

tights can be sexy

dancer butts

Brenda and myself

man i love those girls, when i came home on saturday at around 11 Megan's brother came and picked me up then i went over to megans and spent the night. we didnt actually ever sleep since Jake wanted to watch the sun rise but we had a ton of fun. man i love that girl she is so awesome. then sunday i came home and went to westside to hang out with travis and chris.

this week has been fun, today we danced at the basketball game and then i got to hang out with travis, i like him so much, he makes me laugh more than anyone else. tomorrow the dance team is going to eat dinner together then we leave for STATE on thursday.

kiss__theselips @ 2005-02-10T22:36:00

2005-02-11T04:33:27Z

We leave for SECTIONS!
Since the bus ride is going to be like 4 hours, call me if you want.
<3

kiss__theselips @ 2005-01-29T21:58:00

2005-01-30T04:18:32Z

So today was the big Aitkin Invitational/Confrence Championship dance thing. We KICKED ASS.
In High Kick we took first for both and jazz funk did the same.
It was so awesome,
& the other teams were so pissed.
Sections are on the 12th then State is on the 18th& 19th. I cant wait its going to be so much fun.
<3

My very first show.

2005-01-21T04:38:17Z

Okay so on saturday i went to my first show. I went with jamie& sarah and we met up with sam, tom, tim, korey, and eric.
It was awsome, i am addicted. It was at a place called Segue and we went to go see 5 Stars for Failure, an awsome band whose members are from Aitkin, and there were like 6 other bands there i think.
Maybe i can make these next few months here bearable after all.

<3

kiss__theselips @ 2005-01-09T22:21:00

2005-01-10T04:33:37Z

Okay so ive been trying to make up my mind about where i should live. Its been so hard to try and figure this out, things were far from perfect in chula vista...but there i had established friends, a dance studio that i loved, a comfortable life style, and i didnt have the cold to deal with or all of the awful insects in the summer (which by the way im alergic to mosquitos). Here its just hard because i dont have any of the things that i miss so much. Ive tried to start over, Ive joined the dance team but i love the people more than dancing and that isnt how it should be. I used to have such a passion for dance, it was the only time that i felt i could be myself and escape from everything but now its just so much pressure and always trying to please someone else. Plus with the dance team when i was on high kick i tried to establish relationships with the girls and bond and become friends with them, i mean they were really the only people i knew at that school. then now that were practicing jazz funk i just feel like i have to start all over again and now i never talk to any of them because i never see them or when i do i get the feeling that they dont really want to talk to me, with the exception of a few. this is just so hard for me, i miss my family so much. the family i grew up with, not this family that i just started living with in May. Im trying not to make a decision until i visit home in march, i keep hoping that things will start to get better, but nothing has gotten any better. I dont know what to do, i dont know where im going to be happy. I wish i didnt have to make this decision.

kiss__theselips @ 2004-12-28T23:14:00

2004-12-29T05:18:49Z

I miss home.
A LOT.
Ive seriously considered moving back for 10th grade. Any opinions?
I could really use some. =/

ps. we FINALLY have television.

kiss__theselips @ 2004-12-27T14:44:00

2004-12-27T20:57:07Z

Christmas was alright. I miss christmas with my mom, all my dad does is fight with my stepmom and the kids. We had tator tots for dinner and leftover meatloaf. Christmas is the only holiday i like, the only one that matters to me and not once did i hear an i love you lex, or merry christmas lexi from any of my family members.
My mom and stepdad were the only people who made christmas worthwhile, they sent me a box full of BEAUTIFULLY wrapped gifts and talked to me on the phone while i opened them. I wish i couldve hugged them, and my stepdad even said he loved me. Thats really weird for him, hes not a very emotional person and i think hes only told me he loved me a handful of times since theyve been married (almost 8 years i think) but hes getting a lot better about it.
The Rikala family (basically our adoptive family) gave us a wonderful christmas. They really made me feel like i had people who cared about me. it was nice.

Anyway i have dance practice tomorrow. i am going to be so sore.

WE'RE PERFORMING AT THE TIMBERWOLVES (NBA) GAME ON SATURDAY!!!

With love,
Lexi

kiss__theselips @ 2004-12-14T23:06:00

2004-12-15T05:09:54Z

ew i havent updated in forever.
I went to winter formal with a bunch of my girls and danced the night away. that was awsome and we all looked totally hot. we've had two dance competions, we took first in one and 3rd in the other and we have another one on thursday we're going to take first in.
school sucks and i miss boys. i still have not found myself a datable young man in aitkin, but i am working on it.
im coming home on march 23-28. watch out bitches im coming to rock the city. anyone wanna make plans now so i dont forget?

<3 ill try to post some type of pictures later.

EDIT
We took first =)

kiss__theselips @ 2004-11-02T22:01:00

2004-11-03T04:01:08Z

So tell me, what have you kids been up to lately? It seems like i never talk to my lj friends anymore.
How was your Halloween?

<3 Lexi

kiss__theselips @ 2004-10-09T18:56:00

2004-10-10T02:01:10Z

Went to homecoming last night. It was fun. The football team lost big time, but the dance was the shit. I shook it like a salt shaker& taught a few kids how to rave. It was fun. A bunch of people got busted for drinking and crap, it was fun. I'm going to try to put pictures again, tell me if it doesn't work. I have more for another day.

kiss__theselips @ 2004-10-04T21:39:00

2004-10-05T02:48:48Z

Went to the football game with Brianna then spent the night at her house. Hung out there on Saturday and went to Gun Lake for a family thing.

More pics later. My computer is being a cunt.

kiss__theselips @ 2004-09-26T00:13:00

2004-09-26T05:15:41Z

I went to the movie theater with my friend Molly tonight. We saw The Bourne Supremecy...the only movie playing at the theater. It was alright.
I saw Justin (<3).
Hes hottt shit.

Tomorrow im going four wheeling (on a trail ride) with my friend Briana and Janae, Sean, and the boys (my stepmoms and dads best friends)
its going to be fuun, but dirrrty.

Maybe ill update tomorrow now that i have my computer up and running.

<3 Lexi

kiss__theselips @ 2004-09-24T21:50:00

2004-09-25T02:49:39Z

im in minnestoa. ive been here since the end of augest. things are alright here.

if you have shit with me, dont bring it up.
i live thousands of miles away from you.
why should you care.

sooo

2004-08-26T02:17:27Z

this is justine _sixonenine updating for lexi. she is currently in the state of nebraska &she'll be using this once she gets her computer hooked up &shit :D
she misses you.

<3

kiss__theselips @ 2004-07-22T20:14:00

2004-07-23T03:14:41Z

hey everyone. im moving to minnestoa on aug. 27th. so if you were wondering why i havent been in school, now you know why. so yeah. im gonna miss you guys.
<3

kiss__theselips @ 2004-07-12T14:31:00

2004-07-12T21:33:18Z

Well nothing much has been going on.
Im back to going to the movies and i met this really awsome girl named Britney who is cousins with Ashley. Shes PIMP. but yeah the movies are boring. im at kimmy's right now and shes sticking giant band-aids on her forhead. shes crazy.
we went to orientation today and it sucked major ass. plus theyre werent any hot guys so were praying that some of the sophmores and juniors will be worth while.
im still looking for a boyfriend so if anyone out there is interested hit me up.
<3

kiss__theselips @ 2004-04-30T16:39:00

2004-04-30T23:39:14Z

Nothing has been going on.
i have rehersals tomorrow for the recitle, but thats about it.

<3 Lexi

kiss__theselips @ 2004-04-24T15:28:00

2004-04-24T22:29:50Z

I have offically given up on boys.
Most of them are just assholes anyway.
Plus i havent had a boyfriend in almost a year.
Im a window shopper.

Boomers is the place to be biatch.
But my go-cart is better than theirs.

<3

kiss__theselips @ 2004-04-18T16:07:00

2004-04-18T23:06:28Z

At my dads.

Nothings been going on since i got busted.

As you can see i changed my site, my mom wasnt too fond of the whole suicide theme. Oh well.

I got a rat =)

Shes the best little rat. I went shopping yesterday and im going to my dads more, my life has completely changed in last few weeks. I dont really know how i function. I need some new friends. A lot of the people i hang out with are SO happy all the time, i mean i love them but its just too perky. I just want to meet some new people. Im cutting& dying my hair soon, as soon as i pull up my algebra grade to a C. Its going to be short and chunky, like to my shoulders and its going to be white with black bangs and black lowlights. Im so excited =)

Hopefully ill eventually be able to get my lip pierced, or my belly button. My moms finally starting to view the world differently. Well gotta go, hopefully ill be able to post some pics sometime soon.

<3

Lexi

Rant.

2004-04-05T22:01:28Z

Im so upset right now.
People just keep talking shit about me on my very own xanga.
I didnt even know anyone was upset with me. I hate people. I hate their backstabbing ways, their lies, and all their bullshit. My wonders why i dont trust or talk to anyone and why i dont invite anyone over. Thats why. I cant stand to be around the lying, immature, sons of bitches. Id rather stay home by myself and listen to music or go to dance. I dont understand why people behave like that, i never have. Ive never made fun of people and ive never really been mean either. I even have to work on standing up for myself in therapy. No one knows what the hell is going on with me right now, because i dont tell ANYONE how i actually feel. Which is part of what got me into the whole mess im in.
I got busted.
My mom read my journal, it said everything. Everything that ive been hiding from everyone, including myself. My journal is the only place where i actually write down how i feel or what im doing or thinking about. It said everything about the drinking, smoking, hanging around the drugs, and thinking about having sex. I dont even know why i would have sex. Maybe because ive never felt accepted or cared about. Maybe because im just lonely. Hell, i dont even know. My stepdad just made me delete AIM. If you want to talk to me, which no one ever does then you have to email me. I hate life. I hate this. Im their slave. I have to go to work every day with my dad, i cant be alone, ever. I cant go anywhere. Not even to the store. Im a prisoner in my own house. I am nothing. All im doing is taking up valuble oxygen. Im worthless, nothing more then a fucking piece of walking dirt.

FIXED

2004-03-29T06:22:45Z

One of my new shirts from Paris.
Ill post more sometime in the near future.

xoxo Lexi

Im home.

2004-03-26T21:59:15Z

I fell in love with Paris.
I miss it so much.
& i miss all my friends.
<3

kiss__theselips @ 2004-03-14T20:50:00

2004-03-15T04:50:55Z

I'm off to Europe. Everyone have fun while Im gone, ill be back in 11 days.

Ill pick up some stuff for you special people that i love oh so very much <3

Here i come Barcelona, Provence, & Paris. Oh those french boys better watch out.

xoxo Lexi